I Suppose?

I Suppose everything is better now.

Haha yeah ok. More like some things are better now.

I mean, with my parents FinallY putting their foot down, it seems like things might turn out ok.

I know for a fact that there will be majorly rough times thru this year now but, im trying to focus on the positive. 

Even though, since Im going back to school september, there isn't much positive. =)

But I am going to Disney Aug 29. and at the end of september! yay

... I cant think of anything else. Im really tired. 

but i thought i should update that there is some kind of god. lol.

(oh and i cant wait for Nov.21... TWILIGHT!!! <3333333333) 

ok bye 

=P 

Crying my eyes out....

So, now i sit here. Day 2. Crying my eyes out. 

I still dont believe this is reality. I feel like, friggen Ashton Kutcher should just pop out of no where and scream Oh Youve just been Punk'd. 

God Forbid I should be so lucky. 

I cry for so many reasons. I cant even get my thoughts straight right now. 

He's the spotlight stealer for her. 

Its her wedding year but of course the baby is going to be here before their wedding. 

Everyone will be paying attention to them and I feel sorry for her. 

I dont think anyone agrees with me. I feel like our family is falling apart tho. 

And this family? I never thought it could happen. 

Mom defends him. Dad yells at him. JandT fight becuase of him. I cry because of him. But, then, if you look closer into all of this, you realize that everyone is fighting with each other too. Even if they don't know it. 

It may sound crazy and not make sense but its true. 

Im so lost. 

I mean seriously, come on. I woke up this morning crying. Right out of a dream opened my eyes and started crying. Thats because I realized it was reality. =/ 

Ugh

Once I heard that.....

So today I found out something that was not so shocking, but at the same time it was.

I guess the only reason it was shocking was because i just didn't want to believe it.

She is pregnant. Does he and her not realize that this affects other people? 

And they seem happy about it. Theyre not even married. 

They still live with their parents. And when one moves out the baby gets the room. 

I dont know where to go. But this is going to affect my senior year. That supposedly is the best year of all school years. 

There is no way i can stay here. But, I don't know where to move to without changing schools. And my parents actually are letting them stay here? 

Why are we the fallback? Why does mom defend him? How can he be so irresponsible? When will he stop being so selfish? How come I feel like i get the tail-end of everything? 

So many questions and they'll never get answered. 0_O 

I dont know what to do. I refuse to change my lifestyle because of some dumbass who does not know what kind of lifestyle he wants yet at 24 years old. They're not even good together. 

They're not meant to be. They both think they are but if she wasn't preggo, at the end of the 9 months, (probably less) they'd be broken up. But, No!!! God forbid. We've got baby in the picture now. 

Im stuck now. I don't know what to do in this situation. Im not letting them ruin anything for me.

He has made so many friggen mistakes and he STILL gets baby-ed to death. GROW UP. 

Whatever.