I feel so distant sometimes.
I dont mean to be soooo annoying. You say its all good and that im not annoying but i cant help but feel like I am. My friend asks me if any of this is worth it and i said honestly I dont know yet. And then hes all optimistic about how relationships happen for a reason and each one teaches a lesson whether or not its going to work out to be your life or just a small relationship. Idk. but, i listened and learned a bit.
I like how u were there for me and actually asked me what was wrong. And im glad you listened. I needed to get that out.
So i suppose whatever happens is worth it because youre so different, im learning that not everyone is the same and you will always get treated differently. I am willing to try this whole different stuff too. But id like it if you gave a bit too. Im not asking you to change yourself, im not asking you to give up your life. Just hang with me sometimes, invite me some places. make me feel a little bit wanted?(and not just when im with you) send me those good morning texts and call me yours. thats all!
It sounds so dumb but, after watching joey and tara for their 9 yrs together, i feel pressured. I feel like ill never ever have any of that. Well see...
<3
Monday, August 10, 2009
Friday, August 7, 2009
You mean the world to me
Even though you might be crazy.
I dont even know what to say. To you, Im sorry, I couldnt go on because i just didnt feel anything in that way. You kissed me and Im just not getting anything. You are the sweetest most amazing person ever and i hope friendship will do. I regret hurting you but I can pretend to like you, in the end we would be both hurt and 2196478X worse. Dont ever give up though, you will find your girl. The perfect one for you.
To you, Im not even sure what to say. That one night I was actually relieved. Now that were getting close again im afraid you wont follow thru and yet something tells me just to go for it anyway just try... I wish you cared about me alot more so that when we hang out it isnt the only time i feel cared for. But, I have feelings for u and u have them for me, Im going to try this and I want to see where it takes us. I really really enjoyed yesterday and being able to talk about the things we did. Well see.....
So i dont even know where I am right now. Total mood swings but im looking forward to tonight. hmphhh.
Youre a Trainwreck
But I wouldnt love you if you changed.
I dont even know what to say. To you, Im sorry, I couldnt go on because i just didnt feel anything in that way. You kissed me and Im just not getting anything. You are the sweetest most amazing person ever and i hope friendship will do. I regret hurting you but I can pretend to like you, in the end we would be both hurt and 2196478X worse. Dont ever give up though, you will find your girl. The perfect one for you.
To you, Im not even sure what to say. That one night I was actually relieved. Now that were getting close again im afraid you wont follow thru and yet something tells me just to go for it anyway just try... I wish you cared about me alot more so that when we hang out it isnt the only time i feel cared for. But, I have feelings for u and u have them for me, Im going to try this and I want to see where it takes us. I really really enjoyed yesterday and being able to talk about the things we did. Well see.....
So i dont even know where I am right now. Total mood swings but im looking forward to tonight. hmphhh.
Youre a Trainwreck
But I wouldnt love you if you changed.
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