Ups and Downs.

I feel so distant sometimes.

I dont mean to be soooo annoying. You say its all good and that im not annoying but i cant help but feel like I am. My friend asks me if any of this is worth it and i said honestly I dont know yet. And then hes all optimistic about how relationships happen for a reason and each one teaches a lesson whether or not its going to work out to be your life or just a small relationship. Idk. but, i listened and learned a bit.

I like how u were there for me and actually asked me what was wrong. And im glad you listened. I needed to get that out.
So i suppose whatever happens is worth it because youre so different, im learning that not everyone is the same and you will always get treated differently. I am willing to try this whole different stuff too. But id like it if you gave a bit too. Im not asking you to change yourself, im not asking you to give up your life. Just hang with me sometimes, invite me some places. make me feel a little bit wanted?(and not just when im with you) send me those good morning texts and call me yours. thats all!

It sounds so dumb but, after watching joey and tara for their 9 yrs together, i feel pressured. I feel like ill never ever have any of that. Well see...



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