I just feel like screaming. Yaaa over the stupidest shit but still.
I hate college. Like I haven't even started yet but I hate it.
Correct me if I'm wrong but I think I graduated from high school last week right? Sooooo whytf do I have to take the most bs courses
That have nothing to do with my life. I'm majoring as of right now in photography... So you'd think photo courses right? Uhhh no
I have to take 2 math classes, 1 of them being 2 days a week... For what?!?!?!?!?!? And thennnn I have to take English,alright whatever
,and a student success course...WTF is that??
ANd ive just been informed thAt I have to take physical education ... I'm sorry WHAT??!!!????!!! I didn't graduate to high school... I graduated to college.. So please inform me on. What I'm missing.
This is such a joke, and on top of that I hate driving and I have to drive 4 days a week...maybe 5 all the way to the ccollege... Oh wait hahahahahah my favorite part... I'm majoring in photo and there s only one class offered ... At 6 at night and the lab at 7-1050... Jokkkee?????
So now at work I'd have to put in that I can't work tues wed thur... Mon I'm home early enough. Sooo goodbye Friday nights and Saturday late mornings.
God srsly fml. Idk WTF I wan do in life yet And I get treated like I'm a failure bc of that. My dad frickin compared me to my Bff bc she had her god damn life planned out. Well sue me for not being perfect bc I'm pretty damn sure I'm not doing too bad... Especially of were gna start making comparisons. Gahh someone please tell me if I all wrong.
Ughhh well...the plus side to all this is I typed this on. My grad present... iPad <3
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Friday, April 30, 2010
Aint that a slap in the face.
I was cleaning up my piece of crap computer (the hard drive is full? ... thank you apple) and i came across word doc... from 07'. Now that I read it, i remember writing it... I cant remember if the project was to write to your BFF-stuff youd never say bc they wouldnt take it seriously or write to your BFF-send out for reactions... idr whatever... here it is.
December 11,2007
Dear L,
You have been my best friend since I was about nine and you were seven. We met through horseback riding. Somehow you remember how we met better than I do. I still think its funny how you told me that our mothers just introduced us and we just clicked. I appreciate everything you have ever done for me as a best friend. We are so close that a best friend doesn’t even describe our relationship anymore. I prefer calling you the sister I never had. We have had our fights like sisters and sometimes we can’t stand each other but in the end, I think it brings us closer.
I love how you are so bubbly all the time. Sometimes I think that being bored doesn’t exist when I am around you. Even when we sit around with nothing to do, we find something to discuss or laugh about non-stop. Or we just watch Spongebob and eat.
It is so funny how we love doing the same things, such as horseback riding, eating, singing, and “jumping”. Our voices together when we sing are awesome and we definitely should go sing together somewhere in public. Something else that I find to be funny is how we love things that not many of our other friends love. Such as h2o, roller-skating, and Xanadu just to name a few. Speaking of Roller Magic, we really need to go there again sometime soon.
Even though you are younger than me, it doesn’t matter. Some of my friends wonder how my best friend ever is younger than me but I believe that if they met you, they probably would not wonder anymore. My idea of a best friend is someone I can trust, someone I can love enough to call a sister, and someone I can always have fun with no matter what I do. You are all of those things. I do not know what I would do without you because I tell you everything and I have never regretted it.
I want to thank you for everything you have done for me and for always being the best friend ever. I know I will continue to trust you and I will always be there for you whenever you need me.
Love your bestest,
Jen
I might futureme email this letter... but more like futureyou email... it wouldnt b to myself l0l.
December 11,2007
Dear L,
You have been my best friend since I was about nine and you were seven. We met through horseback riding. Somehow you remember how we met better than I do. I still think its funny how you told me that our mothers just introduced us and we just clicked. I appreciate everything you have ever done for me as a best friend. We are so close that a best friend doesn’t even describe our relationship anymore. I prefer calling you the sister I never had. We have had our fights like sisters and sometimes we can’t stand each other but in the end, I think it brings us closer.
I love how you are so bubbly all the time. Sometimes I think that being bored doesn’t exist when I am around you. Even when we sit around with nothing to do, we find something to discuss or laugh about non-stop. Or we just watch Spongebob and eat.
It is so funny how we love doing the same things, such as horseback riding, eating, singing, and “jumping”. Our voices together when we sing are awesome and we definitely should go sing together somewhere in public. Something else that I find to be funny is how we love things that not many of our other friends love. Such as h2o, roller-skating, and Xanadu just to name a few. Speaking of Roller Magic, we really need to go there again sometime soon.
Even though you are younger than me, it doesn’t matter. Some of my friends wonder how my best friend ever is younger than me but I believe that if they met you, they probably would not wonder anymore. My idea of a best friend is someone I can trust, someone I can love enough to call a sister, and someone I can always have fun with no matter what I do. You are all of those things. I do not know what I would do without you because I tell you everything and I have never regretted it.
I want to thank you for everything you have done for me and for always being the best friend ever. I know I will continue to trust you and I will always be there for you whenever you need me.
Love your bestest,
Jen
I might futureme email this letter... but more like futureyou email... it wouldnt b to myself l0l.
Friday, February 19, 2010
Youll have to cry me out
The tears that I'll fall
Mean nothing at all
It's time to get over yourself
Seriously? Its February 19. I still waste my time wiping away mascara stains. Theres not a day that goes by that i think of what Id be doing today if we were back to what we were. Why i waste my time? Ive no clue. But, it just amazes me how u can drop and forget. What im waiting for is for you to drop...fall...and keep falling til you hit rock bottom and you realize every mistake in your life. Now, I know with the Nature vs. Nurture crap, you'll never hit "rock bottom" as long as youve got that green stuff.
"The love of money is the root of all evil." They say. In the teen years you tend to be in denial. Money is amazing. It gets you whatever you want!
No, its not amazing. It cant buy love, truth,honesty,friendship or anything that matters most in life.
Whateverrrr.
Other friends? I dont know. Ever since "stuff" happened, I really don't want to get close to anyone. I feel like ill be abandoned again. Stupid feeling, Stupid reason but whatever. And then, i guess because of what im used to, Im getting angry at one friend in particular. Like, seriously, I take her EVERYWHERE and do everything with her and I dont expect anything back but, ughhhh!!! I hate BEING DITCHED FOR THOSE "FRIENDS". we make plans and you ditch me for them... now ive got nothing to do after prom. Wth.
And last but not least, the family. I love my family. So much. Really, its unexplainable, id never disown anyoneee... But, when u disrespect the parents after EVERYTHING they do for you? thats were i draw the line. Youre angry that I havent made contact with you? like srsly, did you even try ? "no!" ... You two are so hypocritical. I really dont want to say anymore but really, take a step back and watch everything happen from the outside as well, youll see that theres alot of blame on yourself and you cant throw the blame wherever you want.
Mean nothing at all
It's time to get over yourself
Seriously? Its February 19. I still waste my time wiping away mascara stains. Theres not a day that goes by that i think of what Id be doing today if we were back to what we were. Why i waste my time? Ive no clue. But, it just amazes me how u can drop and forget. What im waiting for is for you to drop...fall...and keep falling til you hit rock bottom and you realize every mistake in your life. Now, I know with the Nature vs. Nurture crap, you'll never hit "rock bottom" as long as youve got that green stuff.
"The love of money is the root of all evil." They say. In the teen years you tend to be in denial. Money is amazing. It gets you whatever you want!
No, its not amazing. It cant buy love, truth,honesty,friendship or anything that matters most in life.
Whateverrrr.
Other friends? I dont know. Ever since "stuff" happened, I really don't want to get close to anyone. I feel like ill be abandoned again. Stupid feeling, Stupid reason but whatever. And then, i guess because of what im used to, Im getting angry at one friend in particular. Like, seriously, I take her EVERYWHERE and do everything with her and I dont expect anything back but, ughhhh!!! I hate BEING DITCHED FOR THOSE "FRIENDS". we make plans and you ditch me for them... now ive got nothing to do after prom. Wth.
And last but not least, the family. I love my family. So much. Really, its unexplainable, id never disown anyoneee... But, when u disrespect the parents after EVERYTHING they do for you? thats were i draw the line. Youre angry that I havent made contact with you? like srsly, did you even try ? "no!" ... You two are so hypocritical. I really dont want to say anymore but really, take a step back and watch everything happen from the outside as well, youll see that theres alot of blame on yourself and you cant throw the blame wherever you want.
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