Youll have to cry me out

The tears that I'll fall
Mean nothing at all
It's time to get over yourself


Seriously? Its February 19. I still waste my time wiping away mascara stains. Theres not a day that goes by that i think of what Id be doing today if we were back to what we were. Why i waste my time? Ive no clue. But, it just amazes me how u can drop and forget. What im waiting for is for you to drop...fall...and keep falling til you hit rock bottom and you realize every mistake in your life. Now, I know with the Nature vs. Nurture crap, you'll never hit "rock bottom" as long as youve got that green stuff.
"The love of money is the root of all evil." They say. In the teen years you tend to be in denial. Money is amazing. It gets you whatever you want!
No, its not amazing. It cant buy love, truth,honesty,friendship or anything that matters most in life.
Whateverrrr.

Other friends? I dont know. Ever since "stuff" happened, I really don't want to get close to anyone. I feel like ill be abandoned again. Stupid feeling, Stupid reason but whatever. And then, i guess because of what im used to, Im getting angry at one friend in particular. Like, seriously, I take her EVERYWHERE and do everything with her and I dont expect anything back but, ughhhh!!! I hate BEING DITCHED FOR THOSE "FRIENDS". we make plans and you ditch me for them... now ive got nothing to do after prom. Wth.

And last but not least, the family. I love my family. So much. Really, its unexplainable, id never disown anyoneee... But, when u disrespect the parents after EVERYTHING they do for you? thats were i draw the line. Youre angry that I havent made contact with you? like srsly, did you even try ? "no!" ... You two are so hypocritical. I really dont want to say anymore but really, take a step back and watch everything happen from the outside as well, youll see that theres alot of blame on yourself and you cant throw the blame wherever you want.