I guess some bonds

they're unbreakable?


Its Thanksgiving. Good day so far.

Its really random that I bring this up... I dont understand...I REALLY dislike you and your dysfunctional family and somehow, even though we are nothing anymore, i miss you. so much. There are days when something reminds me of you and I just cry. over and over. You were my BEST friend. How could you just let that go? You didnt have one word to defend yourself and us. I suppose I didnt ethier but I was just so sick of you and him. I guess you never will see things the way I do? Idk. I just wish you werent so stubborn. Anytime I was ever brutally honest with you, it was NEVER to hurt you. Youre like my little sister. I wanted to make sure you came out on top. I wanted to make sure you never got hurt. And then theres your family. I guess I have nothing to say. Your family is like my family and I feel like Ive been completely disowned without explanation. There are SO many things I HATE bout you and your family. But, at the same time, there are so many things i LOVE and miss. But, I cant let you hold me back anymore. I mean, in the end, my mom was terribly upset by you and your family...She just wanted to make sure the friendship was still there. The immaturity level on ur end was not reasonable and she said things, but i suppose they needed to be announced and attended to... Idk if i could ever forgive that tho....well Everywhere I look, something reminds me of you. I need to let that go and move on.
=/ As I write this I hold back tears. I feel weak crying because of you. My mom saw your dad pass her this morning, when she told me I got so excited thinking somehow I could get in touch with you. Well these are my thoughts. Its not meant to change anything bc i dont believe i can go back to dealing with you again. Unless things have changed drastically since.
If I end up sending u this to u or u come across it, have fun reading...I dont ever want to hurt u and I dont mean to if i do... whatever...I want to know if you ever think of me. All those years as Best Friends werent for nothing, I hope?

Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family.

one last thing, I no we grew up in 2 totally different environments...but, things wont always just be handed to you. Learn how to work for things, dont let it destroy you.
Please, Dont grow up too fast.